Emergency - massy + noamy?

Hello before you read this take a breath basically i am inlove with a 25 year old and im 15 i know hes 10 years bigger than me but what can i do love strikes anywhere so anyway hes married and with my aunty and with 1 girl i don't fancy him im actually INLOVE with him i know and his name is mass and basically he treats me ,klike a sister and i known him for 5 years as soon as he came from ameriaca with my aunty as his wife and whenever i see them two joking around i get so jealous of thwm and want to eb in the wifes position and anyways i was 10 when he came to englan and OBVOIUSLY i was not inlove with him then its only when i started my periods at the age of 13 then i started to have feeling for him in that way and anyway his mum asked my hand in marriage for her son so massys brother nomy and massy wants me to get marrie to his brother noamy but i can't becuse iof i get married to moamy then i have to live with massy and it is going to be awaquard because i am living with my husband anfd massy the person thart i am desperately ilove with and i dn't know what to do i want to get as far as possible to massy so i don't show my feeling once massy knows i like him hes never goig to let go of ti he is going to kill ma thearetically and yeah anywah so i don't know my mum is forcing me toi get married with him from2 years from now maybe even 1 year she said get married at the age of 18 i want ot get married at the age of 22 thpough or atleaset 20 but my mum does not agree what shoud i do its alright getting married to noamy bit i have to live with massy which is going to be awquard i know horrible and plus oi don't want to live there becuase i can't eat infront o him i can' tdo anything treust me i be shaking infront of him hgo am i going ot acytualkly live there i know horrible i don't know what to do help me please its in 2 years but i want to it to be in 4 yreasrs my mum said no 2 years but i can't disobey my mum can i and please don't say its your life who gave me the life god bt mum brought you up to be this age so i have to listen but i don't want to get married at the age of 18 its just that and the fact thet i have to live with massys family which is horribel im inlive with him so PLEASE IF NYONE OUT THE KNOWWSS A SOLUTION PLEASE HAPL ME THAK YOU SOOO MUCH